I miss you...

... it has been almost a month since mummy left us. Everything is still so fresh in my mind. Everything just like had happened few days ago. People still calls and asks... My answer to all concerns was, "No worries, im okay", "No problem, i can manage..." It seems so easy for me to say so, I thought I am really okay, and I thought I can really handle...

Today, I am alone at home. I totally have nothing in mind on what to do. I supposed, I have enough time to prepare a simple dinner at home... I was hungry and I supposed to get some munch of biscuits while waiting... And yet, I did not do any of the "supposed". I do not know where my mind flew to... I do not know why I am sitting in front of my pc doing nothing... till my food cooked in cafe world got over-cooked a few rounds...

I took the lil' diary in front of me... I flipped through the pages, I saw mummy's car license and a photo of her slipped between the book cover. I looked at the picture, this faces is not the one I am thinking, is not the one I have in mind all this while. The one that I have in my thought, is the look that she was weak and she was thin. The one that she has loses all her hair, she was bald...

I began to get myself recall her faces when she was still healthy... when she was still energetic... It seems a lil' hard... a lil' difficult... I am afraid that one day, I couldn't remember her faces anymore. I am afraid that there will be a day, I need to look at the photos to help me recall...

I miss you, Mi...