Do not know why, i feel a lil' scare to come back here, I am afraid of reading back my posts, some time back... The posts that I have written on mummy's progress is actually sunken me down still, my tears would drops uncontrollably every time when i read it back. I was alone again at home last night, reading some of the blogs that i used to read... it reminds me of mine actually. Once again, I went through my posts and I cried. I still misses mummy so much... I have never thought that she would leave me so soon.
Well, incident had happened, that was past. So many people had open up their eyes, not believing the "me" today, had grown up, independently and maturely handling all craps that happened.
On the bright side, me too feel, I'm grown up. Along this MIA of time, I have went through a lot. Since mummy passed away, I am busy like bee. We had started our new house renovation soon after settled mummy's funeral. It seems, Vin wanna keep me busy and hope that would minimize my lonely time thinking of mum. We have been terribly tensed up during our reno period, as we wanted everything to settle by CNY 2010. Both of us were working non stop over the clock. We were chasing with time every weekends, and even every evening after work. Luckily, things were really as smooth as we hoped, we managed to move in on the eve of CNY 2010.
Soon after we moved in, we planned on our wedding ceremony. During the process, there were hiccups and disagreements... that's really made me think through how important mummy's role in life. I had always tell, i am so regret that mummy is not around me at that point of time. But fortunately, I have a very understanding and a caring hubby by my side. He is a bonus to me, he seems to understand my situation, he was so sweet that he would always make a step behind to compromise.
My wedding on the 23 May 2010 at The Golden Dragonboat was a successful event, I would say. Lots of invitees had opened up their eyes. Relatives compliments and they changed their perception that I am no longer the daddy's girl. Both Vin and myself had managed the 75 tables of events very well. The programs of the night run smoothly as per scheduled. Thanked to all the best men and bridesmaid of their hard work and commitment for the whole day and night.
Then, Vin and I had a short trip to Avilion PD soon after the wedding. We spent a 4D3N relaxing trip romantically. After the trip, I have got back to work as usual and the norm carry on. One thing different, is that both of us feel, we are so free nowadays. Maybe due to we had a hard time for the past one year, ever since mummy diagnosed with the sickness till she passed away, we continued with the house reno and wedding planning that ended all in May... an exactly "eventful" year.
I am married today. I am staying with my hubby at our lil' cosy love nest. Learning how to become an understanding wife, a responsible daughter and a patience daughter-in-law. Not to say that I am not having a good relationship with my "new" family members, but this is the way of life, I assume. I learn cooking, I learning taking care of the house chores of two houses, I learn to boil soup for both my men and I learn daughter-in-law-ing.
Till date, I enjoy what I am doing now. Although, my hubby is always late from work and I have to be at home alone... I learn to accept and be patience.
Everyone has left the office now. I am alone again, waiting for Vin to leave his office. Raining outside and I can see the traffic is terrible. Am thinking, what's for dinner tonight?
Hmmm...
